First visit
I still remember, masa mula2 dpt tahu the big possibilities that i'm a cancer patient..i searched the info in internet
what is lymphoma?
how true lymphoma is a cancer? the moment i knew it was a cancer, so many things playing in my mind..
am i gonna die??
any survivor out there?
what they do? i don't want to do chemo..
what will happen to my husband?
is he gonna leave me behind?
what about our dreams together?
memang menangis air mata darah pn takkan change the situation..
and I started crying again ..and why just after I healed from my lost :(
masa tu tak boleh nak fikir ape2. i'm lost in my own world. helpless. speechless. bisu terus..
Luckily Siti Zahrah Abdul Jalil (My dear sis, Biby) was in town. She live in Kuching Sarawak. She came to pay me a visit at hospital. She came with a great smile with the red daisy. She always give me support inside out. Her words her big hug always always always makes me relieved. At least batu yg terhempap dari gunung tu dah beralih skit..Not everyone can simply do that. She was the one calling begits to come and visit me. She said i need support. At least moral support.
Why?? Why she did that..? I don't want any sympathy from anyone..And why I need to tell people that I am sick? I am not sick.. Not yet..Doc just give the pre-diagnosis.
Biby managed to get Liza, Najib, prince Naqib, Ijat, Fara, Zura & Malin. That time they only know that I was hospitalized because of jaundice. Dewi, Tiqah, Ros also came over. Yes thanks to Siti Zahrah Abdul Jalil. That's what friends are for. Cheer me up and just to be there by my side.
